etty’s Blog

           As usual, when I’m in trouble, I’m in pain, stressed or even bored, I’ll write something. It is a habit! Whether it is short notes, poems, diary, daily planner or updating blog, it gives a tremendous joy to me. I feel relief, happy and glad. That’s why, wherever i go, I’ll make sure that I’ll carry a piece of paper, or my lovely diary also my favorite ball pen (for sure it is blue) inside my handbag. It is easier for me. Feel something. See something. Remember something. Write it! If not, i will forget about it. It will be missing. (It refer to ideas, things to do, phone number, any specific dates, events, shopping list and many more)

           Well, I do talked to my buddies, shares problem, seeking for advice, discussed about certain topic (including family, loves, friends, office politics, but for sure there is a limit. I prefer keep it for myself only) but sometimes for me expressing my feeling through writing is much more easier. I can say anything without fear in my diary; use any words that I prefer, and telling the truth about my feeling without hurting anyone around me. See! It is easy right? Yeah, it was! Here is a story! What I have learned so far (a bit, since I am still young, naïve, there is a lot of things that I should learn), I want to share with my blog viewer, plus to fulfill my hobbies (writing).

           During my childhood, I do read a lot. Since I lived in government quarters, no friends except my younger brother, no playground, no ‘evening buddies’, or what I can say “bored-peace-polite-innocent-dump-okay” life, it makes me feel that reading a storybook or a newspaper and watching television is a great thing to do. It is enough for a secondary school girl like me! Nothing much that I request! It makes me happy. I feel okay with that. I did enjoy that moment very much! Peace! When I heard that my girl friends had a small hang out party, or a ‘weekly” trip to any shopping mall I felt ‘okay’ with that. I never felt jealous, down, or low self esteem just because that issues. Yeah! Really! For me, if that way makes they happy, so they may proceed (they refers to my friends), I felt nothing. For me, it is great to have comfortable sofa, great books, and a cup of Milo also a cute younger brother that I can jokes with! Enough! Great!

           I do not know what my friends had think about that, but the truth is I’m not really care of what they had think about it. I do concern about my life, my time, my feeling, overall, MYSELF! That’s all. And today, I’m glad that I had made through that most critical moment of my life. I’m proud that I always do whatever I want to do, belief whatever I want to belief, and also think wisely according to my knowledge and relates it with the current situation and lastly find the most suitable and accurate answers! Great huh!

           In a nutshell, in life we will face lots of thing. Happiness, problem, joy, experience are worthless. It is great! Thus, it is depends on us, our self on how we want to face in, manage it and turns it to something great. Makes our life more meaningful, valuable, and makes us a better person!

Summaries: -

-    We should be proud of our self. No matter what happen. Only after that, we will find ways to improve our self. Confident.

-    Learn from mistake. Do not afraid to give a shot, try your best. When we fail, try again! Yes, we can cry. Find a friend, cry on her/his shoulder. The next day, take you planner, then plan for future.

-    Ignore other people who envy you! Never listen to “daily hot gossips”. It may burden you. Ruin your day. Thus, just do your work, finish your job! Settle!

-    Life can be a messed! Come on, everybody have problem! You are not an angel! You are a human. Of course you will have a problem! Nobody is perfect! So, just cool down, and seeks for answers! Solve the problem!

-    If something happen. Do not panic. If you are panic, nothing much you can do! So, always be prepared for anything. Plan wisely! (Planner is important!)

-    You friend sometimes can be your competitor. So, just take is as advantage. You now her/him, so take it as a challenge. You have to deal it with an open heart! Use your brain! Remember, she/he is your competitors not your enemy. (If he/she is your enemy, find out a different ways to handle it! Declare war maybe!)

-    Respect your beloved one! Because she/he wills always the there for you, she/he knows you! She/he knows your strength and weaknesses. So, she/he may helps with wonderful ideas! Great! You are not alone!

-    If you a single, find your perfect buddies/ Person that you really can trust. As long as, you are not alone. Alone=lonely=blank=stress=sad=Problem=Fail!

This is what I have learned. People told me about it. I write this down, in case I may forget. I write this thing, to remind myself too. Again, nobody is perfect. We try our best. Our very best.

Fuhh, today is my super duper busy day! My day starts early today, 7.30am. My super packed schedule begun! Tired. Exhausted. Exciting. I spent the whole day, (I can say) with my beloved mom! Trying my best to entertain her, yet fulfill all her desires. Believe me, it is not easy!

7.30am, I drove my black little MyVi (It’s my mom’s) to Hospital Ampang. Well, she has monthly medical checkup there. Last time, i have to drove at least 100 miles (to Seremban) for her appointment, but things getting better this time, lucky she has being transferred here. Well, well, here is the problem! Its Sometimes challenged my ability as a “good girl” daughter, or i prefer to say “things that annoyed me!!” We arrived at 8.00 am ++ (almost) and my mom’s checkup only finished at 12.00pm. Including breakfast 20minutes, meetings miss doctor 15minutes, taking medicines at pharmacy department 45 minutes, and the rest, our waiting time, our idle time! Wow! It is nuts! It is crazy. It is “marvelous”. For a while, i am losing my patient. But, when its happen I looked around me, I glanced at my mom’s peaceful face and i starts talking to myself “poor mama, I knew you are tired, so do I. Lets finished this together”. That’s how I convinced and pushed myself to stay at the hospital until 12.00pm. Everything is done. Great. Get into the car. Chow!

My next destination for the “Busy Day Trip” is to Tabung Haji Bank. Since my mom has something to deal with this bank, financial transaction or what so ever, it takes at least one hour for me to wait! Again! I am tired of waiting. Waits! Waits! What’s wrong with this people nowadays? Why they can’t be a bit fast, quick, right, and efficient???? Come on! Wake Up! Move your feet, use your brain! Again, i did nothing, rather than waiting! Huh! To release my “annoyed-hated-bored” moods, I am started talking with my mom. Make jokes; rewind the most unforgettable stories, sharing a latest gossip that we know, and spontaneous activity. (I can’t even remember) Success! I feel good! Happy! Ting-tong! Its time to go back!

I didn’t realized or noticed that I have a big, huge happy family (large family members) until last few months, when my grand grandparents (my mom’s side) are organizing a family reunion this coming December. They called it as “Jamak Family Reunion 2008″ It will be held in 20th December 2008. Great! Of course I’ll be joining it! It is “once in the blue moon” activity. My mother is one of the committee members of this reunion thing. They had monthly meeting, discussion or even Eid Mubarak celebration, together! (Including meeting! meeting! meeting!) So, indirectly I will get involved in this matter too since I am sending and fetching my mom to the meeting’s venue and sometimes overheard their discussion. More than that, soon at the “real” reunion day, I am in charged in registration part and also lucky draw. Nice huh? I was thinking that, it is the great opportunity for me to be “Very the exposed lady” at the ceremony! haha! Perfect! Now, I have to clarify what dress that I should wear, perfect sandal or heels, and color of my lipstick! Nice, nice! That’s why, today my mom and i went to Ampang Point and do some surveys on selected goods or suitable material that we should gives away as “lucky draw”. Wow! I like it!

I have the right to choose, which one is great! Which one is suitable, which one is cheap! We spent at least 2 hour at Ampang Point. Well, we at last bought mug, pudding bowl, punch bowl, bad sheet, towel and kettle. It is heavy enough for us to carry it.

We realized that we still have another things to buy! We decided to go to Giant. (Also located inside Ampang Point). I suggested that we should put all our stuff in the car first. Then comes back and continue or “shopping-surveying-walking” activity. Wow! Here we go! Continue with our activity. You know what i am thinking at that time? I think.” Great, tonight I can sleep early, sleep tight, because i am tired, exhausted, yes! Wonderful! hahaha. Great huh? We bought our groceries and then leaved the place. We reached home at 3.20pm.

Our days are not ended yet. At 5.00pm, we went out again! Next,  Pasar Malam/ Night Market. But it is different this time, we just walking slowly, looked at people around us and later just bought something to eat for dinner. My mom’s bought “satay” for grandma and i bought fried mee hoon for myself. We spent one hour at night market. Then, final destination = HOME.

Wow! Busy huh? Yeah, as I said before it is “Super Duper Busy Day”. It’s tiring! But, we are having so much fun. I am viewing my diary right now, so many things to do for the rest few months. (Including next year),so many thing to plan. Yeah ,as usual I’ll excited to make all those thing happen! Success! Fuuhhh!~~

              Alright, we all have friends right? Everybody at least needs somebody in their life. Besides parents, girlfriends, boyfriends we do need friends. Since I traveled a lot when i was a child, childhood memory remains in my mind. I do appreciate what I had gone through, the people that I have met, and also the emotional situation when we have to say “good bye”. I learn a lot, new environment new culture, new location, and definitely new friends.First I think it is disaster, I hate it very much. But later, especially now I think it is great, it is wonderful, it is valuable experience.

              For me, it is easy to make new friends, it is easy to say “hello” or “hai” to strangers, but the most critical part is how we want to maintain our friendship, how we are going to make our friendship last forever, trust me. It was hard. It was difficult. “A friend in need is a friend in deed” it is the wonderful proverb that I always convince myself that I should always be polite, kind, generous, understanding to my friends. I try my best to “be there” to my beloved friends, always lend my hand to my friends if the have problem, I have to be a good listener to them, keep their secrets, and sometimes give suggestion, advice on how to solve their problem.

             If we are housemates, or even roommates, (yeah, this is for my girl friends) we share a lot more stuff. We share foods, shoes, cloths and sometimes we share bed. We sleep together, have a morning cit cat together and hang out together.

 Thus, I really appreciate my friendship; I want to make my friendship long lasting. I’ll work hard to make it happen and I wish my friends would think in the same way too. I have several expectations on how my friendship matters might be in the future. My expectations is more or less like this,

-      My life partner likes my friends, and my friends like my partner. Win-  win situation. Comfort Zone. Easy. Because, for happy life I need both!

-      I hope that my boyfriend, or husband will understand and agree that I still need by friends even though I am in relationship or married. (In future for sure).

-      I want my life partner give me some space for ONLY me + friends.

-      Husband, Please do not get jealous easily with me, I just want to have fun, spending my life with my friends, or buddy for a WHILE. Rather than spending 25 hours with you ALONE!

-      My friendships are long lasting, we still hang out together, have a great cit cat, doesn’t matter men, or women. My best buddy.

-      I admired the quality of friendship from the serial drama that I had watched, One Tree Hill. Ahaks! Wonderful friendship, great personal life.

-      I have a great girls friend, good listener, secrete keeper, problem helper, yeah I really appreciate my girl’s talk moment!

-      I admired the friendship that “Desperate Housewives” have too.

-      I hope that my friends and I will exchange visits, and continuously for the rest of my life.

-      Sometimes, I want to go to the vacation, with my girls’ friend. (I admit, If want to go with my boy friends or a men friends. Husband must follow me! Agreed! That why I said “girls friend”. Great huh! Campus life DEJAVU.

      Hurm. That is more or less what I have expected. What I want in my friendship would be. Is it impossible?  Am I asking too much? Definitely not! I don’t think so. I think, with a great partner who understand me, will soon understand why I made this kind of expectation. Why not?

      Huge house, Imported Cars, Branded Cloths, Homemade Handbags, Cash Money, Great Jobs, or even a masculine husband will not ensure that I will be the happiest woman in this world. As usual, people sometimes will not easily satisfy with what they have. At least for now, I know what I want. Wonderful Friendship!

While I’m updating this blog/ writing this topic I’m actually satisfied with my Eid Mubarak celebration. Hari Raya Aidilfitri. Yes, I am happy with what I have gone through this holiday. For me, when it come to “Hari Raya” I defined it as,

-       I manage to get off day and rest day, included Public Holiday, also I should apply more annual leave for “hari raya”. Everything will be a disaster if I do not get any off day, or worst I have to work on “hari  raya”.

       Thus, this is the most critical part. “Hari Raya = Holiday = Off  Day”

-      I want to be with my family, more or less my nucleus family ( my dad, my mom, my little bro) on the 1^st Syawal. If I’m not with them, im definitely not happy.

-      My family and I, will travel for at least 7 hours to my parent’s hometown.. “Balik Kampung” is a must!  When there is celebration for  “Hari Raya”, we must going back. If not, there is a meaningless “Hari  Raya”.

-      I must have several “baju raya” included “baju kurung” that I can wear it on the 1^st Syawal. If there is no “baju raya”, thus there is no “raya” for me!

-      I will go to mosque, to do some prayer.( Solat Sunat Aidilfitri) together with my family. I’ll go to the nearest mosque. If I’m period, I’m staying at home, be a kitchen helper.

-      Sit at the living room or my parents bedroom ( or wherever ), prepare to forgiveness from  my parents, admit all mistake that I ever did before, say sorry for everything. And great! My parents still gave “duit raya” to me, until now!

-      Then, starts meeting other relative, seek forgiveness from them. ( grandparents, uncle, auntie and bla bla bla). At the moment I may get more duit raya from them. Also, I help my parents spread away their envelopes ( fill in with duit raya). I’m looking forward for this moment every “ hari raya”.

-      I will go to grave. Reciting a prayer to the dead people. My relative, my family. Wishing a peaceful life to them. Another Life. “Alam Bazarkh”. This is the time that I will recall the memories that I had spend with them, get a lesson that everyone in this world will dies, only the time matters.

-      I’ll visit my other relatives. Say “hello” to them, cit cat a bit, have some updates about our own life, family, share a latest story about another relative and spends our time together, and promise that we will meeting each other again soon!

-      I’ll go to my friend’s open house, spend some time with them, since we are not meeting each other for long time (because of the hard work, too focus on personal life), thus, this will be a great opportunity to get some updates about them.

      ( I miss my friends a lot)

Yeah, that’s what I defined my “hari raya” and my “hari raya” will be unusual, different, boring, meaningless without all those thing.

Yes, at least for this year I managed to get everything that I want, everything that I defined my “hari raya” would be. And I am happy for it.

After a long summer vacation, i never write anything here, i pretty much want to do come back! Thus, i do some research, take a moment to think about the perfect topic that i should write for the comeback! ( believe me, it takes a week!) Well, while browsing other people’s blog, friendster or even magazine i prefer to relates anything that i have read with myself. For now, the “obesity”  itself makes me crazy, and sometimes thinking of that issues may ruined my whole day!

First, what is Obesity? What is Anorexia? I prefer explain it in simple ways:

cute+chubby = fat = obesity = Problems!

slim+skinny+Thin = Haggard= Problem!

Since, both situation will or will not create problem, Thus, what are the solution for that? What is actually girls, young lady or even women thinks about that? How this two issues can actually affect them?

One again! Just take it simple and easy? Who want to be fat? Why you eat too many food? Do you ever do some exercise? I dont think that this question is still relevent. For me, i prefer this kind of question Are you willing to scarifice your beauty over food? What is you purpose of being thin?  Do you ever think of wearing tight dress or fancy t-shirt? Aha! that question is left unsaid! Yes, we do have answers for that question, but normally we will keep that anwers to ourself only! Refer to myself, i prefer to hide all the anwers to myself rather that share it with my best buddy.

Women vs. women! girls vs.girls! Yes, we are friends!  Yes she is my best buddy! Oh really, she’s like a sister to me, but truely..she’s still my competitor. i want to be better than her, i want to be more beautiful than her, i want to be slimmer than her, i want to wear a great dress compared to her! Yeah, this is the answer that i get while doing a survey, listen mouth-to-mouth story, see & watch melodramatic so called “perfect couple” story! My reality-based story is actually what had i going through in my past few years, what i have listened or what i have read!. But this is just my personal opinion, my experience, since we humans being actually have different types of character, behavior and so on. ( Yeah, i am shy person, rarely have fun till midnight, have to comeback home before twelve, never have boyfriend until my third year in campus and bla..bla..bla..) Daaa! the subject is no me..just to proof that different thing will or might happen to another people!

Back to the issue! What girls are so sad/down/demotivated/unconfident/ low self-esteem when they are fat??? Expecially for non-married lady? Well the answer MIGHT be:-

-If i’m fat, i cannot wear tight, fancy, sexy dress like any other girls. I can only wear baggy pants, loose t-shirt! I will not look pretty!

-If i’m fat, everybody will make fun of me! Staring at me like i’m an alien! Laugh at me, or even worst call me ” fatty”

-If i’m fat, i’m look ugly

-If i’m fat, its hard for me to find a boyfriend. I will not look attractive, i will not look pretty, no boys will asking for a date, movies, also prompt! I’ll be isolated, and tremendously sad! I’ll be lonely forever!

-If i’m fat, i’ll only sit at home! I cannot join a marathon, i’m too shy to hike a mountain, i’m too shy to dance, i definately not going to any parties (farewell, prompt, wedding or what so ever) Again, too much to given up! I’ll be isolated, Again! Again!

- If i’m fat, other girls will underestimate me, they will show off the assets, their boyfriend, their teddy bears ( their boyfriend gave to them), i can never join the group, (so called “hot girls” gang). I’m so jeles! I have nothing!

Yeah! thats the reason! reason! explaination. Assumption! Whatever we want to think! Thus what else we can compare this “Obesity” matters, with Anorexia? Okeh! Anorexia is a desease! Agree! It is consider as eating disoder, but the point is. do we care? If we want to ask any teenagers girl .. Which one do you prefer? Obesity or Anorexia? I think 100% will choose “Anorexia”. ( As i said…” i think”) yeah! if you as me, my anwers will be Anorexia also! Why? Because, being Ms.Fatty, to much to loose, too many things to sacrifies, too many problems will occured. Yeah, wno knows that Anorexia deasease, for sure will have a affect to the person who have it. But, Anorexia’s people can still wear a tight pants right? Or wear mini skirts? They can wear better outfit to promt? Hurm… Thus, this is quiet imbalance dicsussion. Since i’m lack of experience of Anorexia’s Victim, i cannot comment much on that!

In a nutshell, what ever might happen next, in women’s life will definately affect “their own life” not husband, not boyfriend, not siblings or what ever. It will totally affect “themselves” “alone”. Is hard to be a lady, women.. however being a women, i something we could ever imagine! Great! Enjoy! Unpredictable, Fun! but we have to pay it with huge sacrifies, high responsibility, great judgement and most important thing high, higher, highest confidence!

p/s: Thanks to Allah, for this great opportunities for me to learn, learn, learn about life, better human being wanna be!

Hurm.Alangkah indahnya bila kita sama2 dapat berkumpul bersama kwn2 lama…rakan2 sekolah..mengimbau kembali sejarah kita bersama..zaman remaja..zaman kanak2.! zaman persekolahan! sungguh indah rasanya!

Setelah sekian lama….aku x jmpa kwn2 sekolah..maklumlah sibuk ngan hal2 tertentu..terikat dgn masa2..hurm! lepas dh grad baru laa aku sempat..nak jumpa diorg! Plan telah diatur, alhamdulillah aku berjaya mengumpulkn kwn2 aku…sebilangan besar..walaupun tak semua! best! kami beraya2…dr rumah2 ke rumah. Sedikit sebanyak aku bangga dgn plan aku..kerana berjaya mendesak kwn2 aku utk wat open house! hahaha

Sepanjang beraya….seharian..kami berbual2,menyingkap kenangan lalu….mulut kami x henti2 bercerita..ketawa,kesal,simpati tentang kisah2 yg kami sama2 pernah lalui….peristiwa kami beraya ini mengingatkn kami pada peristiwa 7 tahun lalu….dimana kami berjln kaki ramai2 untuk beraya…kemudian kami naik teksi ramai2 sampai 5 buah utk beraya…kemudian kami tertawa beramai…sungguh indah kenangan itu semua…

Kini, kami masing2 ader kenderaan sendiri..(mak bapak punya laa) xperlu lagi berjalan kaki…xperlu lagi sewa teksi…naik bas….hurm! aku amat merindui saat2 sebegini…ntah laaa……aku gembira….  syukur kerana aku masih ada rakan2 yg setia di sisi..menemani…bersama bergembira.

Aku doakan persahabatan kami ini akan berkekalan..hingga akhir hayat.

Every day can be a beautiful day.
Just take a look around you
and think about all of the
wonderful things you have
to be thankful for…
the sunshine,
roses,
laughter,
close friends,
family,
music,
and beautiful dreams.
The storm is never
half as bad as it seems.
Don’t let the rain ruin your day.
When the dark clouds move in
just smile,
because the good times
are on the way.

hurm..semua org sibuk nk cari pasangan masing2…nk berkapel sana sini..nk berteman ke hulu kehilir…ader ke sape2 yg sedar or nk bertanya..best sgt ke? happy ke kalu kita bercinta nie?? ntah aku sendiri xdpt nk jwp sbb xtau jwpan nye..kalu aku tau xder laa nk tnya kn? hurm..persoalan yg susah..

ader seseorg yg dh berkali2 tukar bf or gf…dh mcm xde hal..bila dh clash..xsmpai 1-2 bulan dh ade peganti….ader sesetengah nie…bila dh clash or putus..terus broken heart..dh xleh nk terima sape2 lagi patah hati…putus harapan nk hidup berdua..then a last sesuaikn diri sorg dan spend masa ngan kawan2.. anda kategori yg mana? itu kena nilai sendiri laaa kn..nobody knows…

jadi semuanya terpulang…cinta…love ahhh ader byk maksud…sesuka hati sape2 laa nk judge cmne..yg penting kita happy..persoalan nya adakah cinta itu mengembirakn? adakah cinta membahagiakn? adakah cinta menceriakan ataupun akhirnya diri yg sendiri yg terluka?? merana? terseksa smpai rasa nak mati????? love is blind…mmg buta sungguh! kata org yg masyuk dlm asmara..cinta tuh wat kita heppi x kira masa..persoalannya? betul ke? tp, cinta mmg betul2 buta..ditambah lagi..mmg buta tuli.. ader jerk yg bf nye kurus, awek gemuk nak mampos… ader jugak gf kulit hitam, bf cerah cm bulan..ader plak pasangan yg sorg tinggi sorang pendek gile…nk kuatkn lagi contoh,,ader warga emas yg tua bangka bercinta ngan pompuan muda yg masih bergetah… mmg butakn? mmg xleh nmpk ape2 ke kalu bercinta??? kalu berdasarkn contoh2 nie,…mmg betul laa kn….hurm..sekali lagi kena laa tnya empunya diri sbb melalui pengalaman sendiri laa anda leh jwb semua persoalan… boleh jg jwn ntah, xtau, or no comment..depends laa kn..

kalu dh byk sgt perbezaan cmtuh,boleh heppi ke? bahagia ke? haaaaa…kalu dh ade smpai kawin or bercinta bagai nk rak..happi laa tuh..kalu x heppy xkn laa diorg nk teruskan,,,hahahha..kadang2 cinta mmg buat manusia jadi bodoh..or kelihatan seperti bodoh..tp kita mesti x sedar time,..sbb dh diri sendiri terlibat ngan cinta yg bodoh (terpulang pada kategori mana anda bercinta..kalu bodo, bodoh laa kalu x bodoh..x bodoh laaa…cinta sendiri,pandai2 laaa pikir) org lain laa yg sedar..org lain laa yg tgk..org lain laa yg akan komen, org lain laa jgk yg akan mengata….mulut org mmg xleh nk tutup…dh diorg xde keje…biarkn laaaa…at least anda patut tahu,,yg anda diperhatikan…. sbb tuh laa kena jaga..kdg2 kita heppy bgai nk mampos…org tgk kita cm sedey…kdg2 tuh kita sedeh bg nak gila..dpn org kita cover….so org ingat kita x sedey…. kalu kita nie mmg dasar xleh simpang rahsia or dasar org lembik mulut..mmg kita akan bukak cite sendiri kat org laa…kdg2 org tak tnya pun kita ckp…mulut lembik…kadang2 ader gk cmtuh…yg kaki simpan rahsia plak satu hal.payah nk kongsi…nasib laaaaaa. pokoknya….cinta meningalkn impak yg berbeza pada setiap manusia…cuma nasib kita laaa nk dpt nasib yg mana.buruk or baik.

Best sgt ke bercinta???????? best ke? kalu org tgh mabuk mmg die ckp best, kalu org yg tngah frust mmg akan jwb tidak….jadi? xde jwpan laaaaa.tergantung!

Pesona yang  bersinar,memberi sejuta pengertian,sesuatu yang tak terucap,tak terungkai dengan lafaz kata,tak terbisa difahami dengan fikiran normal..Mengapa begitu sukar mengungkai,terkedu lidah untuk melafazkan,  kerna pasti tak siapa yang mengerti,ketahanan yang di rasakan kian terhakis,  menanti saat yang tiba,mebuahkan sejuta rahsia..

Pesona yang bermakna,ketenangan yang tidak bisa berganti,kelegaan menanti peluang untuk menjengah ke hati sang pencari, kian jauh, kian pudar,bilakah persona cahaya akan bersatu,bersama jiwa yang lesu,jiwa yang sentiasa  tersesak dengan permasalahan,persoalan,sering terbeban dengan emosi,yang sukar untuk dimengertikan,tiada siapakah yang sudi mengerti??     tiada siapakah yang simpati?

pesona…..pesona…..pesona yang memberi seri..mendamaikan keresahan jiwa mungkinkah sedikit masa lagi??atau mungkinkah tiada ku temu jawapan untuk semua persoalan..

Kawan,
Di kala kita kesorangan,
Kaku dan sepi
Tak berungkai kesedihan yang terbuku
Entah mengapa cukup sukar untuk mengungkai
Persoalan dan kemusykilan yg terbenam
Sejak kau hadir di sisi aku…bersama mengubat ketika derita
Berkongsi rasa yang sama
Yang sebelum ini hanya aku yang merasainya……

Kawan,
Damai embun bayu
Mengusik sanubari yang adakala nya termanggu
Mengapa perpisahan….mengapa penakhiran yg sering berlaku
Sering ku tapis omongan minda
Ku lempar jauh cetusan hati
yg berkata kesunyian jua yang bertahta….
Mengapa aku tak bias
Hadapinya dengan terbuka……….

Kawan,
Genggam laa janji kita….
Erat setia bersama akhirnya
Saling bersama, saling membina
Bahagia, kerjaya, kemegahan bersama.
Pinta dipanjangkn tali itu
Biar lebih erat jadinya
Memegang erti persahabatan kita
Yang terjalin, yang terpaut
Moga tak akan terlerai selamanya…………..

Kawan,
Terima kasih kerna masih setia bersama
Bersama jua berdepan dengan onak duri
Bergandingan merentas ranjau
Tak tegar aku ranapkan segala makna persahabatan
Tidak mahu aku matikan segala kenangan..
Yang terindah ketika bersamamu….