etty’s Blog

           As usual, when I’m in trouble, I’m in pain, stressed or even bored, I’ll write something. It is a habit! Whether it is short notes, poems, diary, daily planner or updating blog, it gives a tremendous joy to me. I feel relief, happy and glad. That’s why, wherever i go, I’ll make sure that I’ll carry a piece of paper, or my lovely diary also my favorite ball pen (for sure it is blue) inside my handbag. It is easier for me. Feel something. See something. Remember something. Write it! If not, i will forget about it. It will be missing. (It refer to ideas, things to do, phone number, any specific dates, events, shopping list and many more)

           Well, I do talked to my buddies, shares problem, seeking for advice, discussed about certain topic (including family, loves, friends, office politics, but for sure there is a limit. I prefer keep it for myself only) but sometimes for me expressing my feeling through writing is much more easier. I can say anything without fear in my diary; use any words that I prefer, and telling the truth about my feeling without hurting anyone around me. See! It is easy right? Yeah, it was! Here is a story! What I have learned so far (a bit, since I am still young, naïve, there is a lot of things that I should learn), I want to share with my blog viewer, plus to fulfill my hobbies (writing).

           During my childhood, I do read a lot. Since I lived in government quarters, no friends except my younger brother, no playground, no ‘evening buddies’, or what I can say “bored-peace-polite-innocent-dump-okay” life, it makes me feel that reading a storybook or a newspaper and watching television is a great thing to do. It is enough for a secondary school girl like me! Nothing much that I request! It makes me happy. I feel okay with that. I did enjoy that moment very much! Peace! When I heard that my girl friends had a small hang out party, or a ‘weekly” trip to any shopping mall I felt ‘okay’ with that. I never felt jealous, down, or low self esteem just because that issues. Yeah! Really! For me, if that way makes they happy, so they may proceed (they refers to my friends), I felt nothing. For me, it is great to have comfortable sofa, great books, and a cup of Milo also a cute younger brother that I can jokes with! Enough! Great!

           I do not know what my friends had think about that, but the truth is I’m not really care of what they had think about it. I do concern about my life, my time, my feeling, overall, MYSELF! That’s all. And today, I’m glad that I had made through that most critical moment of my life. I’m proud that I always do whatever I want to do, belief whatever I want to belief, and also think wisely according to my knowledge and relates it with the current situation and lastly find the most suitable and accurate answers! Great huh!

           In a nutshell, in life we will face lots of thing. Happiness, problem, joy, experience are worthless. It is great! Thus, it is depends on us, our self on how we want to face in, manage it and turns it to something great. Makes our life more meaningful, valuable, and makes us a better person!

Summaries: -

-    We should be proud of our self. No matter what happen. Only after that, we will find ways to improve our self. Confident.

-    Learn from mistake. Do not afraid to give a shot, try your best. When we fail, try again! Yes, we can cry. Find a friend, cry on her/his shoulder. The next day, take you planner, then plan for future.

-    Ignore other people who envy you! Never listen to “daily hot gossips”. It may burden you. Ruin your day. Thus, just do your work, finish your job! Settle!

-    Life can be a messed! Come on, everybody have problem! You are not an angel! You are a human. Of course you will have a problem! Nobody is perfect! So, just cool down, and seeks for answers! Solve the problem!

-    If something happen. Do not panic. If you are panic, nothing much you can do! So, always be prepared for anything. Plan wisely! (Planner is important!)

-    You friend sometimes can be your competitor. So, just take is as advantage. You now her/him, so take it as a challenge. You have to deal it with an open heart! Use your brain! Remember, she/he is your competitors not your enemy. (If he/she is your enemy, find out a different ways to handle it! Declare war maybe!)

-    Respect your beloved one! Because she/he wills always the there for you, she/he knows you! She/he knows your strength and weaknesses. So, she/he may helps with wonderful ideas! Great! You are not alone!

-    If you a single, find your perfect buddies/ Person that you really can trust. As long as, you are not alone. Alone=lonely=blank=stress=sad=Problem=Fail!

This is what I have learned. People told me about it. I write this down, in case I may forget. I write this thing, to remind myself too. Again, nobody is perfect. We try our best. Our very best.

Fuhh, today is my super duper busy day! My day starts early today, 7.30am. My super packed schedule begun! Tired. Exhausted. Exciting. I spent the whole day, (I can say) with my beloved mom! Trying my best to entertain her, yet fulfill all her desires. Believe me, it is not easy!

7.30am, I drove my black little MyVi (It’s my mom’s) to Hospital Ampang. Well, she has monthly medical checkup there. Last time, i have to drove at least 100 miles (to Seremban) for her appointment, but things getting better this time, lucky she has being transferred here. Well, well, here is the problem! Its Sometimes challenged my ability as a “good girl” daughter, or i prefer to say “things that annoyed me!!” We arrived at 8.00 am ++ (almost) and my mom’s checkup only finished at 12.00pm. Including breakfast 20minutes, meetings miss doctor 15minutes, taking medicines at pharmacy department 45 minutes, and the rest, our waiting time, our idle time! Wow! It is nuts! It is crazy. It is “marvelous”. For a while, i am losing my patient. But, when its happen I looked around me, I glanced at my mom’s peaceful face and i starts talking to myself “poor mama, I knew you are tired, so do I. Lets finished this together”. That’s how I convinced and pushed myself to stay at the hospital until 12.00pm. Everything is done. Great. Get into the car. Chow!

My next destination for the “Busy Day Trip” is to Tabung Haji Bank. Since my mom has something to deal with this bank, financial transaction or what so ever, it takes at least one hour for me to wait! Again! I am tired of waiting. Waits! Waits! What’s wrong with this people nowadays? Why they can’t be a bit fast, quick, right, and efficient???? Come on! Wake Up! Move your feet, use your brain! Again, i did nothing, rather than waiting! Huh! To release my “annoyed-hated-bored” moods, I am started talking with my mom. Make jokes; rewind the most unforgettable stories, sharing a latest gossip that we know, and spontaneous activity. (I can’t even remember) Success! I feel good! Happy! Ting-tong! Its time to go back!

I didn’t realized or noticed that I have a big, huge happy family (large family members) until last few months, when my grand grandparents (my mom’s side) are organizing a family reunion this coming December. They called it as “Jamak Family Reunion 2008″ It will be held in 20th December 2008. Great! Of course I’ll be joining it! It is “once in the blue moon” activity. My mother is one of the committee members of this reunion thing. They had monthly meeting, discussion or even Eid Mubarak celebration, together! (Including meeting! meeting! meeting!) So, indirectly I will get involved in this matter too since I am sending and fetching my mom to the meeting’s venue and sometimes overheard their discussion. More than that, soon at the “real” reunion day, I am in charged in registration part and also lucky draw. Nice huh? I was thinking that, it is the great opportunity for me to be “Very the exposed lady” at the ceremony! haha! Perfect! Now, I have to clarify what dress that I should wear, perfect sandal or heels, and color of my lipstick! Nice, nice! That’s why, today my mom and i went to Ampang Point and do some surveys on selected goods or suitable material that we should gives away as “lucky draw”. Wow! I like it!

I have the right to choose, which one is great! Which one is suitable, which one is cheap! We spent at least 2 hour at Ampang Point. Well, we at last bought mug, pudding bowl, punch bowl, bad sheet, towel and kettle. It is heavy enough for us to carry it.

We realized that we still have another things to buy! We decided to go to Giant. (Also located inside Ampang Point). I suggested that we should put all our stuff in the car first. Then comes back and continue or “shopping-surveying-walking” activity. Wow! Here we go! Continue with our activity. You know what i am thinking at that time? I think.” Great, tonight I can sleep early, sleep tight, because i am tired, exhausted, yes! Wonderful! hahaha. Great huh? We bought our groceries and then leaved the place. We reached home at 3.20pm.

Our days are not ended yet. At 5.00pm, we went out again! Next,  Pasar Malam/ Night Market. But it is different this time, we just walking slowly, looked at people around us and later just bought something to eat for dinner. My mom’s bought “satay” for grandma and i bought fried mee hoon for myself. We spent one hour at night market. Then, final destination = HOME.

Wow! Busy huh? Yeah, as I said before it is “Super Duper Busy Day”. It’s tiring! But, we are having so much fun. I am viewing my diary right now, so many things to do for the rest few months. (Including next year),so many thing to plan. Yeah ,as usual I’ll excited to make all those thing happen! Success! Fuuhhh!~~